As much as I welcome summer..

I think I might miss this mist and the rain. I won't miss walking in the rain. I've done that way too many times this year. And I will NOT miss this horrible wind. Running against the wind is killing me every night.

I've finally had the time and money to get a lot of my slide film processed/scanned.
One thing I've noticed is that I can't help but shoot in fragments and details.

I have this theory. You know how people that are shy are insecure can't seem to stare or look people in the eye? Especially after they first meet, etc. For me I find it to be my perfect excuse to get to know this person. I use my camera to get close. Literally and physically. But with my friends- whom I photograph every day.. I have very little images of them. Just staring at me. Or looking at me in the sense of the "traditional portrait". I wonder why..

White blank pages

I had my first cup of coffee today accidently. I feel that although I've experienced more life than some 90 year old people.. there are still tiny mundane things I haven't experienced. Case in point, drink coffee. I think I always associated it with the "coffee-breath" everyone has after and just filed that away in my brain as a negative connotation. None the less I feel like I just snorted a fuck ton of speed and I don't enjoy this jittery feeling. But I will say this; it tasted damn good.

I need to work on my god damn website. However this beautiful sliver of summer is making me lazy. I want to enjoy life and the sun. I don't want to sit in a dark lab all day editing away. I don't want to be in a cold darkroom *have I ever said anything like that before?!* printing away, leaving smelling like fix and selenium. I just wanna dress cute. Play in the sun. And possibly lay on the grass in a park and read a book. Because I'm that kinda girl.

I drank a beer on an empty stomach. And I'm still jittery from that stupid coffee drink 5 hours ago. But I'm not hungry. And I'm a poor kid until next week. Ah life.