Wednesday, April 14, 2010

We live together in a photograph of time





I accept everything that is coming. I accept the fact I probably won't make it out of still life alive. I accept the fact that not working out for the past month turns me into a fatty. I accept the fact that there are not enough hours in the day to get everything I want done.

I woke up at 9. I set my alarm to 6. I put on some clothes and took the bust to Bart. I went to Daly City. Took Mark Quines' portrait. He fixed my fuji-back. We hung out and saw the GGB (jokes) from his backyard. He dropped me off at David W.'s house. I met his roommates. I drank a glass of wine at 2:30 in the afternoon. I took David's portrait. I like his house a lot. His roommates all know eachother through mopeds. I felt extremely out of the loop. They had all their cool lingo and moped talk... I realized what a huge nerd I must sound like with my photo friends. I took the bus to Van Ness. I got an awesome ice pop at walgreens for 2 bucks. I walked home and dropped off my camera stuff. I went back to school and processed about 15 sheets of film. I was doing well. A few people got on my ass about not going to class. I understand. I know I didn't go to class. It's no one's problem.

I saw Ruffo. I really enjoy him. He's a great boy.

Apparently tomorrow I'm modeling nude for Julianna's 4x5 final. Damnit hahah.

I had this amazing chicken/pesto sandwich. It was amazing. The most expensive sandwich of my life but it was SO good.

My hands hurt a lot and I really should do some yoga.

Waking up bright and early tomorrow.

Friday, April 9, 2010

I don't know what I was thinking





This is Henny Penny.

Tuesday fucking slapped me in the face. I won't go into details but it really didn't go the way I wanted it to. For some stupid reason I went to school and couldn't control myself. I told myself over and over I didn't need him to cheer me up but of course I did. I was surprised at how much better life could be with just a hug. And of course Patty was walking down the street. She had strawberries and gave me one. It was one of the kindest gestures I've seen in a while. Funny how just a tiny little strawberry made me happy.

Yesterday was way random. I didn't feel like seeing anyone. I stayed at home and slept until 12:41. I met my god mother at Moma. We went to Ducca. The one thing I love about my God parents is no matter what they're doing they have dropped their life and rushed to wherever I am to be by my side. I feel so lucky to have such an amazing family and amazing people in my life. We caught up on her work. She's currently doing some work for Nasa and helping the cupertino plant go green. It's exciting since she's been trying to work with them for the past 6 years. We left and I walked to 180. I saw Kyle and saw some of his 16mm images. To be honest I'm blown away with his stuff. It sounds stupid because all my friends are so talented but I totally admire the whole process he goes through to make his images. And they're beautiful. I dont know I just really like them.

I went back to Moma to meet Wass' class. I was at the 75th Anniversary Gala ages ago so I've already seen the exhibit. I still walked around I love going to museums. But I'd much like it if I were by myself. Wass kept running into me and some kid in our class kept taking my photo. I met a new friend. His name is Mark. He's 23 and has 19 tattoos and has been married for 2.5 years. Crazy. He had this silly little preppy jacket and khaki's on - I was so surprised when he showed me his half sleeve. We're surfing Wednesday morning before work. I'm extremely excited by this. He has a very Thoreau-way of thinking and I super admire it. He's very interesting. I'm going to interview him on my love project.

We sat at a coffee shop with the class talking about our projects. I don't know if it's because I'm in my 3rd year and taking a 1st year class or if my class is just extremely retarded and unproductive, but everyone either "hadn't decided" on their final (we've had at least 2 weeks to "think" of two-three ideas) or their concepts included death, suicide or portraits in a studio. With no concept behind it. I was a bit put off by their responses, because there are a select few in my class who are very talented it's just obvious they don't put in the effort. So I guess we'll see how it goes.

Kelly wanted to use my mark II over the weekend so she walked home with me. I took her ass straight into my neighborhood and she was pretty uncomfortable. She was laughing saying how she's 28 and acts like a scared little girl and I walk around saying Hello to everyone. A man came out of the tobacco store with a handful of beautiful red roses. He then proceeded to slap himself in the face repeatedly screaming some obscene remark about my shorts. Welcome to my 'hood, girl.

I got a call from Ange and she wanted to have sushi. We met at Kyoto and talked about life, school, her poison oak, her sisters, her moving situation, and movies. We walked home and smoked some weed. 20 minutes later, my co-workers boyfriend walks in. I was so happy to see him. He's such a fun person. I was stoned by 10 PM and we talked about how he's just packing up and leaving to go to New York at the end of the month. He has a live in girlfriend, and two dogs and he leaves everything behind the 28th. It was a little sad. And the mood definitely went down... leave it to Ange to brighten up a situation. She put on "Newsies"- one of my favorite musicals. We started singing and dancing. Doug showed off his awesome moves and Ange got up to what I thought was to go to the bathroom. Two seconds later out of the corner or my eye I just see her flying across the room with her legs in the air and I never thought I could laugh so hard. I think we all laughed for a good 4 minutes. I am not lying.

Her sister came over and made a brief encounter. We cleaned her bong and Ange made resin tea. Disgusting. Doug left to go to McTeague's and then Kyle came by. He did his helmet dance which always makes me smile. We got him some powder for his feet. He stayed for a bit then left. I felt like passing out but Ange brought out this amazing chocolate cake. I ate at least 1/4 of it. Marz came in and we watched Seinfeld and he gave Ange a massage. He tried massaging my arm and it just hurt a lot. speaking of I need to call my chiropractor and move my files from campbell to san francisco.

So last night was a blasty blast. I really like Angela and I'm happy we're friends. She always cheers me up and even though we're not at that part of our friendship were we tell eachother anything and everything, I still feel like she gets me. And I get her.