Where the hell does time go?

Seriously though? I feel like I had more freedom when I was in school with deadlines and projects creeping up behind me than I do on my actual "summer". I've pretty much just been working 5 days a week and if I wasn't in the city I was in San Jose enjoying some actual SUN.

This summer has been freezing!! Coldest summer by FAR. I'm fairly certain that it will be warmer in September/October than it will be this whole summer. Embarrassing.

I've been writing a lot. Contemplating wtf I should do or want to do after college. Looking are grad schools. Looking at potential jobs or side jobs that would entail me to shoot more. I've been shooting a lot. At least 49 rolls of film and filled up three 8 gig cf cards, it's just a matter of me developing and editing everything. Which I guess I just have to be more diligent about.

I've really gotten into architecture and have been buying and engulfing myself into interior design magazines and architecture books. I recently got an assignment in Alamo to take some photos of a couples home and send them off to their architect. Once I finish editing and making print outs for him I'll post some up here.


Some things I haven't been so good focused on is putting my website together and just re-doing the whole thing. Re-branding myself and editing all these new photos and making everything cohesive. Also I haven't done yoga or worked out in almost 2 months. I feel like dying. And I feel the pudge coming on.

I think I'll get back to editing. I'll report back soon.

Please call me we need to talk.


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I'm a cat

And I'll be back



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This is a bad fucking dream

And Ill wake up and none of this ever happened.

There's something

That no song can translate. No poem could tell you more beautifully. No message in a bottle would get to you fast enough. Telephone calls won't do it justice. I'm full of love and joy I just hope one day soon I can see your face and tell you. Good news can wait.


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We need to be angels for each other, to give each other strength and consolation. Because only when we fully realize that the cup of life is not only a cup of sorrow but also a cup of joy will we be able to drink it.

words of your summer

I was standing on the ledge
of a twenty-four story building.
I was breathing in every dream. Every hope. Every story. Every word of your summer.
I exhaled all my doubt. All my concern. All my confusion. All my worries.
I closed my eyes and saw nothing but you.
I opened my eyes and told myself not to look down.
I looked down.
I saw the roads and paths of which I had lead my life up until that point.
I saw every option. Every decision I had ever made. Every tear ever cried.
I took in a big breath and screamed till my lungs shot out.
This is beauty. This is real. This is more than appreciation. It's more than an argument.
A hug. A song shared. A laugh. A hand held. A quick minute where both eyes are met.
I took it for granted.
I stood on the ledge for years.
The only way down is to jump.
How the fuck did I get up so high?