I'm totally blasting Hanson right now

And I'm enjoying it. I'm going to try my hardest to dedicate today to just shooting. Let's see if I don't get distracted.

I spent a good 2 hours organizing and cleaning my room. And I've been ALL about my fireplace ever since our smores party. A good way to start spring break I feel.

I'm not motivated at all to shoot my 4x5... and I loaded about 45 sheets of film @ school before break thinking I'd be all stealth shooting the fuck out of everything. Guess not...

I got my guitar back from San Jose so happy. Thinking about buying a new keyboard. I am all about this Akai MPK88 board. We'll see what's up.

Bought a ton of groceries yesterday. Salmon anyone? Yes!! So yummy. And some produce my body doesn't hate me anymore for feeding it shit.

I think this post is pointless I felt I had something I had to write earlier but now I can't remember. I'll post something later.

I know that you're a sucker for anything acoustic

This week has been so beautiful. I still have a crap ton to shoot for. But I'm enjoying my time off. I've gotten 4 interviews done.

They have gone way better than I planned. I've found that I've gone to two extremes- interviewing people I've known for years and people I've known for a short period time. What I find exciting is the people that I barely know are just so open with me in talking about love, relationships, their parents relationships, childhood, how they define love and such. Which I'm just so happy about. Each person has also given me a little piece of them which I so admire and appreciate. I leave after every interview with such respect and fun things.

Like Michael. Totally not what I was expecting. And I spent those 5 hours just in awe of him. He's one of those people that I know I will get along with and hope we can become good friends. We went back to his place and after spending about an hour talking about music in the original interview he played a song he wrote which I was totally taken a back. I feel it's one of those intimate things when you hear a song someone has put so much heart and soul into and I was very happy he shared that with me.

Sarah was the same in terms of surprises. She was not what I thought and gave me such a great story and opened up even though we've known eachother for a day. She's a hopeless romantic and even though she has such a tough exterior her interview and her stories were so beautiful. She took me back to her place as well and showed me her artwork. SO amazing. She paints and uses a lot of text with her work and I was blown away about her scales of paintings. She gave me a painting and I promised Id make her a print + a print of her portrait when I take it.


I'm actually totally procrastinating. I have to go to work, pick up some of my 4x5 stuff that came in the mail, and shower, finish cleaning my room and have some girl time with ange. I'm amped.

Life is going pretty good. And positivity is all around me. I'm blessed honestly to know such amazing talented people

It will be alright

I feel like every day I just have more and more on my plate. I tried putting all my energy into my 4x5 class.. but am now a good 2-3 assignments behind in still life. And an assignment and a half behind in Wass' class. However it consists of a total of 15 prints. So fuck me- right?

Today was actually pretty good. I dont know what it is about wednesdays. I spend all day at school. Go home and can never go to sleep. In turn giving me 2-4 hours max of sleep and then I go to 4x5. Then Concept class. A total of 10 hours. Then I find some way to manage to still stay in school and work on some assignment. But I'm usually in a pretty good mood thursdays. I dont know how it works itself out.

Tonight I went to slideslam which was presented at our school this month. It was great seeing some of my east bay photographer friends. I met some great new people. Juan Carlos presented his work that he just finished in Haiti. He presented a lot of film which was so great. Check out his work here.

There was a huge turn out which I was super amped on. A lot of new friends. Good vibes. Met some new contacts for Dust's next issue.

Speaking of....

We're finally cracking down this next week and putting Dust together. I think a total of 20 something photographers this issue. What the crack is that? SO amazing. I'm really happy.

I got my fuji back. So amped. Just won a 4x5 jobo loader with the guide and tank. So I'll be waiting for that little sucker to appear at my door in the next few days. I found a box of old band t's from my middle school/high school days. Think glassjaw, anything drive thru records, kinda stuff. I'm totally rocking those t's this summer.

Life has made a crazy fucking turn in my life. For a long while I saw it as a huge blockage in the middle of the road and it's taking me a while to see past that and see it as something in a more positive.. it's just hard to see that. Maybe sometimes it just is what it is?

Spring break mother fucker. Spring. Effing. Break.

I never asked for any of this

It's increasingly hard to keep going through each day. I feel like with every new day I have more and more obstacles I have to go through. To be honest I know in the long run I will look back and see these were all lessons for me... But right now it just hurts. Way too much.

I've been too trusting. And too willing to let people into my life. I fucking regret a lot of it.

I'm way behind in classes and school is totally kicking my ass. So no spring break for me. Work work work.

I'm getting tired of this damn city.

What a crazy semester this will be!

I am so excited. About everything. It's just if I have time to fit everything in to my days. I feel this week has gone by in a blur. I've learned so much. I bought about 2-3 books on view cameras trying to learn as much as I can about them. I'm nerding out trying to go pro with the zone system. I did my first polaroids for 4x5. Then did a film test. I loaded my film correctly (I was so worried!) and processed everything well! So happy!
My negatives are at school but I'll scan in my contact sheets.

My valentines day was pretty good. Woke up in Treasure island. Kevin made pancakes. Yuri made me a cute v-day card. Kevin and I explored some abandoned buildings. We took some awesome photos with his holga and my expired kodak color film. I'll scan those in asap as well. We ran into some squatters. SO weird. They were awesome and totally chill it was just we were walking down this long hallway. About 200 ft. long. No joke. And at the end of the hallway we see someone walk out. He was totally back lit and just stood there. But we finally spoke after a minute of standing still and not talking to one another. His name was John. He asked if we wanted to get high. We said no thanks and left. I told him happy Valentines day and I think he appreciated it.

Afterwards I went to work. I had a busy day surprisingly. I listened to the Sufjan Stevens radio on Pandora. I want to learn how to play the banjo.

I need to make a mix cd I've been promising a friend.

I need to clean my room. And drink some water. Get some sleep I have a long day tomorrow.
I want to shoot more color.
I need to cut my hair soon.

No wonder I can't keep my thoughts together!

Look at this mess. I've been so caught up with school and work it's been crazy. But it's a good crazy.

TODAY:
-get dressed
-go to Johns intro to photography class and teach these noobs about light meters
-sell my light meter
-go to Gassers and get cable release, pick up leahs book for 4x5, buy Tri-x 4x5 film, buy a new friggin thermometer, buy sleeves for 4x5
-drop that shit off at school
-practice loading/developing 4x5 film
-shoot in the studio
-make some working prints
-work on DUST
-DUST meeting
-grab some juice
-read book about 4x5 and crazy awesome book about making your own developer
-maybe eat? lets see if I have time...


ok.
off I go.

Poor Lion

You'll see my awesome creation this Thursday!